Don’t worry, I’m not dedicating today’s post to everyone’s
favourite singing, chair-spinning reality T.V. show which coincidently is
starting again soon (I wonder if the BBC will pay me for that plug…) Nor is
Hayley Wright the subject of this blog (a reference for Footballistically
Arsenal listeners) because that would be plain creepy. What I am talking about
is… surprise, surprise… no, not Cilla Black but ME.
One of the problems that is a major part of my condition and
has deteriorated over the years is my speech. I’ve said before, being stuck in
a wheelchair permanently is by no means fun but I am quite used to being a
‘Wheelchair Boy’. However, the thing that most concerns me is my voice. When I
look back at home-videos, it has always
been a bit slow but not noticeable. Even a few years ago, I’d argue that it was
difficult to see what disability I had if you looked at me waist up (I realise
that’s difficult for all the girls). But now, the eyes are a slight give away but more
prominent in my opinion is the slurred speech.
Some people don’t hear it and can completely understand.
Others (the number is increasing) find it very difficult when speaking to me.
Although it’s frustrating, I much prefer it when people ask me to repeat myself
rather than pretending they understand (I’m guilty of that) or pulling a
ridiculous face and straining to listen or better still, just ignoring me. Oh
yeah, or using telepathy in order to finish my sentence.
Speaking differently to the norm poses a few issues for me
in life. I’m so frightened when I speak to someone new on the phone. At least
in real time, they can lip read to help. Also, it’s not an excuse as such but
my speaking problems plus not being able to hear properly when out in a
pub/club (another product of my condition) is just another reason why I never
meet girls. As a result, I’m shy and when I do speak, it’s in a monotone voice,
which gives out a boring, nerdy vibe.
So, that’s why I don’t have the same conversational skills
as this here blog.
Bye for now!
I've said this before and I'll say it again the right girl will look past your disability , those that don't aren't worthy of your time or effort!
ReplyDeleteEasier said than done I know but stop worrying .... you my lovely are one in a million and I adore you x
Thank you. I just want people to be less ignorant so I hope this will help. x
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